Birth of an Author

babyWhen I wrote my first book, I thought being an author would be fun. All these people would buy my book and love it…and that would make me feel all warm and fuzzy. I’ve learned since that being an author isn’t easy (nor warm and fuzzy).

The hardest thing for me was admitting that I was an author. I’m shy and quiet by nature, so it was excruciating to market my own book…and heaven forbid I tell anyone I knew that I was an author. Suddenly, that seemed too braggy and grandiose. So I minimized myself and my book.

Granted, I don’t make a living off of being a writer. We’d be living on Top Ramen 3x a day if I had to feed my kids off the royalties from my one book so far. But still…I wrote that book. My  name’s on the cover. And it’s quite a good story (if I say so myself). I love my plot and characters; My story hasn’t bored me yet (and that’s saying a lot since I’ve probably read it no less than 100 times; no joke).

My first book, Eyes of Light, was my birth as an author. For the past 8 months, I’ve been a toddler in the Writing World…learning slowly from other authors and stumbling along as I try to walk the walk and talk the talk of an Adult Author.

author cartoon1I’m still not a grown up author yet…but I can walk on my own (without falling and hitting my head on the coffee table). I have a legitimate website (click on Home to see)…my 2nd book is close to being released…and I’ve honed my writing skills (I don’t write “Goo goo ga ga” anymore). Most important though is that I accept myself as an author (and that is probably the biggest step of all).

Now, as I prepare for the release of Secret Keepers, my second book in the Eyes of Light trilogy, I can shout out: “I’m an author!” Even if I’m not a best-selling author…I’m an author, nonetheless. I love writing and creating new characters and worlds where I can delve deep into myself and what I believe.

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Joy in my Writing Moments

So no more closet writing for me. I’ve been BORN…and can’t crawl back in my cave of complacency to hide anymore. Secret Keepers should be out by February. I won’t pinky-promise on that (because I’ve been wrong before), but I’m doing all in my power to get it ready for publishing.  Thanks to all of you who have supported and cheered me on during my writing journey. You are the best!

And I’m curious…have you been gun-shy about telling others about what you do or dream about because of feelings of inadequacy? How did you overcome it? Or do you still fight those feelings and sell yourself short?

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24 thoughts on “Birth of an Author

  1. How exciting that your second book is almost out. Love the post. I think this write-in-the-closet mentality is probably common for a lot of authors. It took me a month to tell my husband I’d written a book. So if it took me that long to tell him…yeah. I still have people who knew me pre-writing find it incredibly strange that I write books. Oh well. It’s an addiction I can’t break now. 🙂

    • Sometimes its hardest to tell those closest to you, because you don’t want to see that befuddled look on their face that says, “What are you talking about? You’re not a writer!” I still haven’t let my husband read my 2nd book (he keeps asking, and I say…”I’m still editing it; I’ll let you read the proof copy.” I guess I’m trying to reach perfection with it before I let him read it so he doesn’t laugh at me…which he wouldn’t do, but I still want it to be perfect before he reads it). And I agree with you…it is an addiction that I can’t break either now. I usually hop through hobbies perfecting them and then moving onto something new and more challenging. Writing is very challenging. I don’t know whether I’ll ever perfect it and be able to move on.

      • Haha, I love that about your husband. I can relate completely. It’s like you only get one shot and if it’s not your best shot, there’s no going back. It’s not true, but it feels true. I think you and I have a lot in common. I’m known for jumping hobbies, until I started this writing thing. Now it feels like it’s a million hobbies jumbled into one, since we can write about whatever we want. Maybe that’s why we love it so much. 🙂

    • Yes, but I’ve seen many writers make lots more money writing the shorts than the long ones like mine. You can turn out shorts faster than a whole novel and charge 99 cents for it and publish half dozen a year or so (very efficient). I’m tempted to try it in the future.

  2. Not only are you a great author, but you’re a great artist/cartoonist too! I’ve never thought of talking about writing as bragging because writing is something we love and I’ve just always loved to talk about it. Maybe it’s a different when you have a book out. Whenever I’ve talked about writing, it’s mostly been about reporting and then it’s usually because people ask me questions about it. I do wish we could just write and not have to worry about marketing ourselves all the time though. Maybe it’ll get easier as we go along. I’ll look forward to your second book!

    • I got a drawing tablet for Christmas that I’ve been goofing off with. It’s kind of fun. I doubt I’ll ever make my own covers for my books, but I don’t mind throwing a silly cartoon onto my blog. And I have the same wish as you…that we could just write without having to worry about the marketing side. Ick!

  3. I love your drawings, Char! Well done with Secret Keepers and I hope it’s out in February as well because I’ll be free to read as much as I like by then! 😀

    • Thanks, Dianne. I just got the cover back, and with a few tweaks, I think it will be ready. Now I can get a print proof copy to look over. So I hope it will be out by February. I would love it if it was earlier, but don’t want to be too optimistic.

  4. I can relate to your feelings about writing as a career. Years ago I was paranoid about people finding out about my writing. But now I don’t have a problem. Bakers don’t worry about their work and creations being seen and enjoyed, nor do artists, dancers and builders. Why should we? 🙂

  5. That’s right! Why should we worry? Just enjoy writing and life and don’t worry about the negative people out there who like to tear everything down.

    • I also find I prefer the word ‘writer’ rather than ‘author’. I think ‘author’ sounds formal and pretentious like an old pompous English professor (although, I’m sure others see it as rich and romantic), whereas ‘writer’ to me sounds modern and active. I don’t know, is there such a thing as ‘word prejudice’? If so, I may have it. 🙂

  6. After I completed my first manuscript, I felt comfortable saying I was a writer. It was just a part of who I am. But the word author carries the connotation of being published. I shy away from that word because my novel hasn’t been published yet. 🙂

  7. Congratulations on your second book!! I’ve only recently started saying publicly that I *want* to be a writer. I agree with Kourtney Heintz that an author, to me, is someone who has published. And your onto #2 so you should shout it out 🙂

    • Thanks, Arlene. Nice to meet you, by the way. Kourtney did make a good distinction between the 2 words Writer and Author that I hadn’t ever thought of before. And I agree with her now too. I’m looking forward to reading more of your posts now that you found me and helped me find your blog.

  8. Congratulations on your current and upcoming book Char! And for wonderfully expressing how vulnerable the whole marketing process can be, and calling oneself an author. When writing my first book, “The Right Relationship Starts with you” I had no idea the joy and hard work it would all be. I’m grateful I didn’t quit and miss this experience! Great post!

  9. Love the drawings!! i tell people i write but am not published & don’t know when i will be… but i think marketing myself & my book would be difficult when it comes time to do it… sigh!

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